it'll come by.

it feels weird to still be in this state. unconsciously. I guess being with him made me like this. coz he was the only one. so there wasnt any reason for me to go back to my old self.

but now its over. im still in the state where, there would only be one at a time.

the ones turned out to be cowards when they get into my head.

they dont understand me.

to them, ive never experienced joy before.

are u kidding me? even sylvia plath and emily dickinson both experienced joy before, but their connection with the their darker side was stronger. yeah they had a tragic life, but, dude, its the reality. you are not living if you are not hurting. thats how I see it.

my Almost Perfection, everything is well blended.

thats why I hold on to it.

thats why its worth all of me.

thats why, I'm sure, I'll get my Almost Perfection, again. Sooner or later.