Impatient.

when you realized that you have wasted most of your life doing nothing that benefits you, into the dark hole inhibited. but when you realized that there still chances to make it up to yourself, and start to live a worthy life, of course you'll grab the chance. even if it's desperately.

because it's about taking control of your own future, own life and freedom. if you are one of those people who needs to live for own sake, you'll get it. I do not bow down to others' happiness, not anymore. why should I kill mine, to make theirs. at the end of the day, it messes up and when inspected, it's found that honesty and sincerity were absent. so what's the whole point?

you bowed down to them without the right intentions to make them satisfied, only to disappoint them. stop wasting time on shits that'll bring you down and start focusing on the shits that are gonna be your prized possession.

so I'm 'sorry' if I appear to be so desperate wanting a better future for myself. You're just mad because you haven't found your path yet.