A Comeback.

I had a dream about Perfection today. Shocking, because I haven't gave him much thought since years back and even in that period of time, he never did come into my dreams. With our difference in commitments and focus, there wasn't any reason for me to keep trying. After that year, our path split and we moved on with our own lives. Back then I called him Wild Eyes for his talent to spot the littlest detail on me and because we didn't spend much time together or did I point it out to him or the fact that he was always sitting behind me in class, it was sexily psychic.

He tried, though, when he asked for my number but after a short chat we knew it wasn't going anywhere. We didn't have to say it out loud, we just knew.

It's just that lately, especially with the dramas I have and still going through with males, I looked back and set up few standards that Future needs to abide by. He kept appearing randomly, surprisingly keeps making my day. That's when Wild Eyes changed to Perfection, reformatting my mind that perfect does exist, it's just that it's not mine.

In the dream, Perfection portrayed his characteristics that made him stood out from the rest, his perfect self. I'm sure there are others in the world who are indeed perfect, but he is the only person I know is. As always, he greeted with a smile and everything went well. I felt all of the emotions, happiness & joy when we laughed. Scared yet safe when he started to tell tales of ghosts and when he put his arms around to comfort me. Overwhelmed when he kissed my right cheek to let me know that I have nothing to be afraid of, that he'll always be there whenever I need him. I can still feel the heat from his kiss and that hug, was the most comfortable and assuring feeling I have ever felt.

Then Reality appeared and Drama started to stir things up. Somehow three arguments could occur at the same time, with Perfection, Bestfriend and Bitch. It's never a good sight to have jealousy and girls in the same room. Especially that one particular Bitch whose mindset is "I can get anything and everything that I want." It was already like a scene from a typical high school/college drama - need not to be included.

Due to the same reasons, somehow, Perfection changed face. We were still in the same place but he wasn't him, Bestfriend and Bitch were strangers. I guess the other parts of my brain took over.

Fast forward to me already on good terms with Bestfriend, I wanted to talk to Perfection but he was still furious at me. After that I sensed that I needed to correct myself, change and improve myself to gain self respect and that Perfection comes in few numbers after in the list.

Pass yourself over the bar you have set for others.-

By Luna Ramona.