Terfaktab.

"kau selalu fikirkan orang lain, mengapa kau tidak fikirkan sendiri."

a friend said the exact line to me back in F5. I was in a dilemma back then, of course, I'm the one with the boy problem. Till that time, there were about four boys I let go of, I backed off and gave way to my friends. Weird thing was I actually really like all four of them, a lot, well not at the same time of course.

And up to present, two more are added to the list.

I honestly think, compared to my friends, they are more worthy of the boys' time and attention. They taught them how to grow maturely and feel what needed to be felt.

And I am just a mess. I clean up, all by myself and I am fine with that.

I get irritated easily and notice flaws that I just can't shake off, so I might just be with myself.